LUNAR ECLIPSE 24° Capricorn
For a long time, I used my smallness to feel like I was making a difference in a world obsessed with ego gratification. I wanted no part of that, and so I carved an identity out of what I thought was humility and rebellion.
Today I know humility isn't staying small but using bigness as a change agent. Nothing wrong with wanting better for yourself, especially if it frees you up to do better things in the world, to show up more generously, and share without fear of lack. I write a lot about scarcity because it's been a driving factor in my life, and I see it driving every dysfunctional system around me. .
It's almost impossible to change a system as old and ingrained as scarcity with mere thinking. Most likely we inherited our beliefs early on and keep them around to feel safe. When we do little things to stay small we assure our survival brain that we're okay. Breaking the pattern of scarcity can bring on discomfort, depression, panic because it's a huge disruption. .
To change a pattern we have to change our actions, one step at a time. Those of us in recovery know this. We didn't get sober by thinking our addictions away. We had to implement an entirely new way of doing life and adopt a new language for it. We had to create a sub-culture where new behavior could thrive and feel accepted. And over time, we experienced a psychic change as the result and then shared our success with others, with no fear of losing what we had because we realized there was enough. We found abundance.
In awakening to our Godselves- the true nature of who we are- we heal the world. Not through egoism, but in acts of self charity and beyond. Sharing resources, support, stories, and recovery... this is how we make a difference.
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