It has taken me a while to write this newsletter. I was trying to figure out how to export my contacts from one platform to another during a global pandemic, and guess what? It was too much so I quit.
Our nervous systems are all feeling this whether we realize it or not. Some people are experiencing strange sleep patterns, others notice they can't concentrate or retain information, and it's likely that all of us are riding waves of energy and fatigue. (Speaking of which, I feel there should be a distinction between tiredness and listlessness- when we're tired we need rest. When we're listless we need circulation and movement.)
All that to say, this pandemic is taking a toll on our physical and social nervous systems. These symptoms are nothing to be alarmed about, it's our body's way of taking care of itself. So if I can't learn new technical skills right now, it's okay. Old school emails are fine.
I miss my clients. I miss touch. I miss social dancing and going to movies, restaurants and all the usual ways I experience connection. But I don't miss feeling pressured to meet the status quo or participate in patriarchal capitalism. I don't miss the rate at which the earth was being terrorized by mass transit and material consumption.
That may trigger some of you who are struggling right now, and I understand that. It's important to check our privilege and think in terms of intersectionality. Not everyone has the privilege of an unemployment funded staycation.
Some of us are working from home and homeschooling and cooking dinner. Others are treating sick people, caretaking elders, or forced to show up in work places despite stay at home orders.
People of color are being hit hardest by Covid-19 in many cities, bringing to light the structural inequities still in place.
Addictive behaviors are rising globally as our nervous systems grasp at comfort and escape.
It's a very hard time to be a "physical being having a spiritual experience". But I believe we are born with flexible minds and resilient nervous systems, and if given the right tools to cope with stress, we can do hard stuff. We can stay healthy and help each other.
I've been using this time to catch up on my continuing education in the field of trauma study. I've taken some on-line courses with trauma & somatic repair specialists. I'm enrolled in a philosophy course at Harvard University exploring justice (currently they are offering free courses that anyone can audit). And finally I am meeting with a team twice a week on Zoom to learn and practice peer-to-peer counseling techniques that help discharge stress in the body and clear the path to a more authentic way of living, relating, and being.
I've been finishing creative projects that have been on the back burner. I've also hugged A LOT of trees. It's Taurus season, and this Taurus is grateful for the privilege of spending unlimited time outside (unlike friends in other countries with strict curfews). I'm doing everything I can to practice safe, social distancing and living one day at a time.
It's a quiet revolution to heal ourselves and bring that healing out into the world. I feel very blessed to be doing this work. As we're all creating new routines and boundaries around our time and energy, I encourage you to take up more space. Limit screen time if you feel fatigue. Give yourself breaks and drink more water. Ask for help, and remember that this is all new. No one has experienced this under the same exact circumstances, and therefore we are ALL in a learning cycle which requires us to leave room for mistakes. Progress not perfection.
I will be in touch when I feel it's safe and ethical to resume massage services. If you are interested in astrology & tarot coaching, you can book through my website isabelleguzman.com I offer a sliding scale and work through FaceTime & Zoom.
Until then, stay well and be kind to yourselves.
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